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The Secret Relationship Boyband Book You’ve All Been Waiting For: If This Gets Out by Sophie Gonzales and Cale Dietrich Review

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Oh no, I accidentally didn’t post for an entire month… Again. I think if you follow me you’re probably used to this by now. I just pop in every once in a while like, “Here’s a book I liked, here’s another one I didn’t. I’ll see you later!” With that being said, here’s a review for an ARC I read last year!

If you’ve ever shipped members of a boyband, or spent hours reading fan fiction about boybands, this book will be right up your alley. If This Gets Out by Sophie Gonzales and Cale Dietrich follows two members of a band called Saturday as they navigate international stardom and a secret relationship.

If This Gets Out
Image: Cover of If This Gets Out by Sophie Gonzalez and Cale Dietrich

Summary

Eighteen-year-olds Ruben Montez and Zach Knight are two members of the boy-band Saturday, one of the biggest acts in America. Along with their bandmates, Angel Phan and Jon Braxton, the four are teen heartbreakers in front of the cameras and best friends backstage. But privately, cracks are starting to form: their once-easy rapport is straining under the pressures of fame, and Ruben confides in Zach that he’s feeling smothered by management’s pressure to stay in the closet.

On a whirlwind tour through Europe, with both an unrelenting schedule and minimal supervision, Ruben and Zach come to rely on each other more and more, and their already close friendship evolves into a romance. But when they decide they’re ready to tell their fans and live freely, Zach and Ruben start to truly realize that they will never have the support of their management. How can they hold tight to each other when the whole world seems to want to come between them?

Review

I definitely think that this book had its moments. I was intrigued by the discussion of exploitation in the music industry and of course was excited for the romance too. With that being said, I think that this lacked a lot of depth. There were the beginnings of discussions on drug abuse, disordered eating, and more and all of these were consequences of the power that Saturday’s management company had over them. It had the set up of a book that could have started a lot of conversations about exploitation and the way that we treat musical idols. Instead of looking deeper at these, the story was repetitive in nature surrounding entirely on teen angst and a relationship that I found lacked chemistry.

Ruben and Zach were the narrators of the story and despite being best friends and eventually falling for each other I didn’t really get it. Zach was indecisive to the point that I was actually angry with him. He was a people pleaser to the extreme and while this did become a central conflict I didn’t finish the book thinking that he had changed at all. Ruben was a fine character and I really don’t have much to say about him on that front. I think that his family drama was a unique plot point and I felt a lot of sympathy for him and all that he had gone through. This was something else that I thought could have been explored more. Honestly, the other members of Saturday were at times more intriguing than the narrators but I understand why Zach and Ruben were chosen for the main characters without adding the points of view of Angel and Jon.

In terms of the writing, If This Gets Out really did bring me back to high school and reading fan fiction late into the night. I wasn’t someone who did read much involving boy bands but this book gave off a lot of the same vibes. I think that this will be a big appeal to readers because it’s familiar and fun. I really did think that this was an interesting concept and I think that anyone who has ever shipped members of a boyband might be interested in picking this up. Personally, I ended up reading it a lot slower than I expected to and I have a feeling that was due simply to the fact that I didn’t enjoy the plot as much as I had hoped. From the synopsis and the way that the book began I definitely expected this to be more dramatic than it actually was. Moments of conflict or drama would start to pop up, or there would be an event that seemed to foreshadow something bigger but then all of it just fizzled out. Then the ending arrived and it all wrapped up conveniently with a nice tight bow. It didn’t bother me but it didn’t impress me either. I really can’t come up with any other way to describe this other than it was fine!

If I step back, I do see how Zach and Ruben fell for each other. The close proximity and their friendship heavily factored in and I’m kind of disappointed that I wasn’t able to like this book as much as I had hoped I would. I think a lot of my opinions boil down to how little the conflicts seemed to matter. Sure, it was angsty but that angst never seemed to go anywhere. The inner conflict the boys had overpowered a lot of the conflicts that were happening outside of their relationship. Like I had mentioned at the beginning, numerous heavy topics were sprinkled throughout the book but that sprinkling was all we were given. Personally, I would have loved to see larger discussions on these topics as well as the angsty romance bits. Overall, I see why many people loved this book and found it enjoyable. It didn’t blow me away but I didn’t hate it either so I ended up rating it three stars.

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Graphic Novel Review: Eat, and Love Yourself by Sweeney Boo

*This post may contain spoilers*

Thank you to NetGalley and the publisher for the eARC of this graphic novel. Eat, and Love Yourself is out today for purchase 🙂

Eat, and Love Yourself

Synopsis:

A story about Mindy, a woman living with an eating disorder who has to learn how to love herself again.

In pursuit of the perfect body, Mindy buys the low-fat diet products and the glossy magazines which promise the secret to losing weight. One night, while perusing the aisles of the neighborhood convenience store for a midnight snack, she finds a new product. A chocolate bar called “Eat and Love Yourself”. On a whim, Mindy buys the curious candy, not knowing that with every piece of chocolate she eats, she will be brought back to a specific moment of her past — helping her to look at herself honestly, learn to love her body the way it is, and accepting love. Perhaps, she will even realize that her long lost high school best friend, Elliot, was more than just a friend…

Rating:

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Review:

TW: Depression, Bulimia, Body Dysmorphia, Eating Disorders

I was intrigued by this graphic novel from the get go. I stumbled across it on NetGalley and wanted to read it right away and while I absolutely loved the artwork, the story itself fell somewhat flat.

Body image and eating disorders and anything that falls in that realm is incredibly nuanced and complex and I think that one aspect of this story that missed the mark was the length. I think that anyone would say that 160 pages would be difficult to tell a complete story in, especially one that contains the topics that this one does and I feel as if this could have benefitted from more content. The synopsis (which I didn’t read until after I had finished reading it) tells the story entirely. While normally I wouldn’t mind, as it does a great job of summing up the story, it made me realize that I really felt like the story was too short. There wasn’t enough explanation, inner thought, or conclusion. I ended my time reading only wanting more, but not in terms of a sequel, just more from what I was given. The ending was abrupt and everything else really only breached the surface of the topic at hand.

From the story that we were given I feel wishy washy in terms of my opinion. Again, I loved the artwork but because nothing related to the plot was fleshed out I was left with more questions than answers. I loved the arc of self acceptance and was overall pleased with the story in general but I constantly felt like I was reading the highlights or a sneak peek of this graphic novel rather than an almost finished product. I know that this book was about self love but I couldn’t help but wonder where the interpersonal relationships were, why the characters interacted the way that they did, why certain conversations led to others. The flashback scenes only provided so much context.

I think if the author was going for a broad, more universally understandable story about a woman’s journey to self love she hit that mark. But this story held so much potential that just wasn’t there. It has the important messages of looking back at oneself and finding contentment and self love in the midst of disordered eating and thoughts but it was all surface level. As someone who has spent much of their life struggling with self image and disordered eating I loved the memories that Mindy was given that allowed her to step back and look at how she ended up in the spot that she was in. The book did open up the line of self reflection which I know is something that a lot of people struggle with.

This is the type of book to spark conversations and again, I cannot praise the artwork more, and if you’re looking for a graphic novel that ties in body positivity and relearning how to love yourself in the midst of personal struggles I would recommend it.