June Favorites

Summer is whizzing by, I can’t believe it’s already July!

Here are some of the things that I loved in the month of June:

First off was the nonfiction section in my local library. I have spent a great deal of time perusing this section and have a massive stack of books that I need to read this summer. Most of the books that I’ve checked out were in the Christian section and I’m loving learning more about my faith!

Next favorite is my Sand Cloud towel. I have wanted a nice beach towel for a few years now and I finally got one that is instagram worthy. I bought the acid wash print and honestly look how nice it is! I’m so glad I got to contribute to #savethefishies.

Next up is my favorite new top that I got from Old Navy. It fits me so well and it’s really comfortable. I’ve been sorting through my closet slowly but surely and stocking up on basic pieces and I’m definitely a fan of this basic tee.

The day lilies have been in full bloom! I love flowers and my favorite part of spring and summer is seeing all the pretty flowers bloom in my front yard.

Red lipstick has been my go-to for years now and my most recent red lip purchase is this ColourPop and Hello Kitty collab. It’s the nicest liquid lipstick I have ever purchased, goes on smoothly and stays for hours!

My last favorite is this body mist that I got while I was in London. It is scented white grape with aloe and smells like my favorite lotion (which has been discontinued) so I had to get it! I have yet to look up if I can buy this online so I’m a little nervous about using it since I’m sure I’ll run out quickly. However, I love it so much it’s worth it to use it every day.

So that’s what I’ve been loving this month! What have you guys been into this past month?

Have a great week everyone!

Makeup Favorites

Today I’m here with a post that I’ve been planning on making for a little over a year now but I just haven’t gotten around to writing it. (Or more like I haven’t wanted to take the pictures that go with all the writing).

So here are some of my favorite makeup items! I’ll split them up into different categories and give you the details on each item.

Face items:

NYX Dewy Finish Setting Spray

So I guess I’m starting off with what is actually the last item I use when doing my makeup. This is the first setting spray I’ve ever purchased and I honestly don’t think I will ever be switching it up. My makeup used to melt off my face by the end of the day and with this it all stays in place which I love because it means I can wear makeup everyday and not worry about sweating it all off!

Tarte Cheek Stain in Dazed

This is one of the only blushes that I use. I find it hard to use blush because my skin is relatively pale so I feel like even when I’m using a minuscule amount of product I still end up looking like a clown. Dazed actually blends out to look really natural and it also smells like Fruity Pebbles which I find to be a really awesome bonus.

ColourPop Sculpting Stick in Dove and Pixi Beauty Bronzer in Summertime

These are my go-to products for bronzing and contouring. I use Dove primarily in the winter when I’m paler and Summertime in the summer when I have more of a tan. They both work really well with pale skin which I really appreciate. I definitely like how well Summertime works with my skin tone because most bronzers I’ve owned in the past end up being way too orange in tone and look garish on my face no matter how tan I get. So I’ve pared down my collection to just these two products for bronzing and contouring and I’m really happy with both of them.

 

Tarte Amazonian Clay 12-hour Blush in Enthused

So even though this is described as a blush I use it as a highlight because of how sparkly it is. I bought this on a whim during some sort of holiday sale at Sephora and I didn’t even touch it for months after purchasing it. Then I started getting back into makeup and using highlighter and I picked this up to try and realized just how awesome it is!

Eye Items:

bareMinerals Brow Color in Dark Blonde/Medium Brown

This is the only eyebrow product I own and I love it! It’s really easy to apply and looks so natural.

Pacifica Eyeshadow in Ethereal:

So the more that I think about it, the more that I wonder if this is actually supposed to be a highlighter. I use it as an eyeshadow but I honestly think that I might start using it as a highlighter because it really pops.

The Balm’s Nude Dude Volume 2:

I’ve had this palette for a few years now and I love it more every time I use it. The colors are flawless and there’s little to no fallout which is awesome!

Tarte’s Tartelette in Bloom:

I got this for Christmas and has been my most used palette since December (although I will admit it hasn’t gotten a ton of use because I haven’t been wearing makeup as much as I used to). It does have a decent amount of powder kick up but I still really enjoy the colors. It is also pretty lightly pigmented compared to other eyeshadows that I use but it helps for those days when I don’t want a super bold eyeshadow look.

Lip Items:

ColourPop Lippies

The price and formula of these are amazing! $5 for lipsticks and $6 for liquid lipsticks, heck yeah! I have a giant stash of these and whenever I want to try a new color I go with ColourPop because I know that I’m going to get good quality for cheap so even if the color isn’t what I’m looking for I didn’t spend a fortune on it.

Some items that I love that aren’t pictured here include IT Cosmetics Superhero mascara (it is incredibly pricey but my absolute favorite). I’m using an ELF mascara right now which I enjoy but it takes about three layers before my eyelashes get anywhere near the level they are at with the Superhero mascara. I also really enjoy Kat Von D’s Tattoo eyeliner but again, using an ELF eyeliner which just doesn’t quite measure up but is way more affordable. Gotta love being a broke college student with no summer job.

On a side note, I didn’t do any swatches of my eyeshadow palettes or lipsticks because I was thinking of doing separate posts on just those items if anyone is interested in that.

So these are my favorite makeup items! What are your go-to makeup items? Also don’t forget to leave a comment below if you want me to write a more in depth post about any of my eyeshadow palettes or my collection of ColourPop lip products.

Have a great week everyone!

Why I Hate the “College Student” Stereotype

I’m sure you’ve all seen these memes before:

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The memes that treat college students like the dumbest, laziest, pettiest people on earth. These memes frustrate me a lot. I hate how the college student stereotype has evolved into such a negative thing.

College educated people used to be looked up upon as a higher class of society. To even be able to go to college was an amazing feat. Now, college is pretty open to most people and many students take advantage of it.

To me, college is an amazing privilege and I think that too many of us attending nowadays don’t take this seriously enough. There have been many days in the past year that I’ve considered dropping out just because I don’t feel like I’m putting my all into my education and I feel guilty about that! Like I’m spending thousands of dollars per semester to get some of the most important education of my life and yet I was so depressed that I could barely do any of my work.

Then, when I attended classes, there were people sitting there that were in the same situation as me grade wise and with hardly any work done but they are in that situation because of excessive partying or laziness. It just blows my mind that some people are willing to throw away this amazing opportunity in order to have a good time.

And that brings me to another point. Since when is college supposed to be the best years of your life?

For me, I am trying to make the most of the time I have at Saint Scholastica and now that I’ve gotten a lot of my mental health under control I can finally realize why people love college so much. There’s so much freedom and being able to spend time with your friends whenever you want is pretty amazing.

So I get that these memes do relate to people, I fully understand that there are people out there like that, I know for a fact that there’s at least one in every class for me. But at the same time, why do we have to stereotype college students in such a negative way. My friends and I are working our butts off, with activities and work every single day and upwards of 18 credits worth of work every single semester. We put our all into our education because we want to be successful and we want to prove that the college student stereotype is false. (At least I want to anyways).

College is more than parties or homework, though. It’s about finding out who you are in this big scary world but still having a buffer to fall back on if things get in your way. We can still change our paths, pretty frequently if you’re me! Or you can just sink into your original path and realize just how meant for you that truly is. There’s so much to learn about and I am so excited for everything I get to do before I graduate.

I hope that those of you who read this post come to appreciate college as much as I have and I hope that more people fight back at the college student stereotype and really show people that we’re more than lazy drunks.

Happy Wednesday everyone!

17 Things I Want To Do In 2017

I have never followed through on resolutions. Never! Not once! So I’ve decided to make a big resolution to never make another resolution. Instead I am going to make a list of 17 things that I would like to do in 2017.

 1 Blog consistently

I’m horrible at being a blogger. That’s pretty obvious to me, so this year I’d like to try and blog at least five days a week. I want to act like this is a job!

2 Crochet

I am in the process of opening an Etsy shop of crocheted items that I have made. Obviously in order to do this, I need to crochet things. I need to make things and I need to crochet every single day.

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3 Take more pictures

I just want the memories.

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4 Journal more

I’m working on a post about reasons to start journaling and I realized just how awful I am at journaling consistently so on top of blogging consistently, I would also like to journal consistently (every day would be amazing but I’d be happy with a few times a week, even just once week where I sat down and got out all my craftiness and emotions out would be awesome).

5 Workout

Starting off today I’m doing a 30 day workout calendar from Blogilates with my boyfriend and I’m hoping the two of us can hold each other accountable and workout a lot this year. We both really want to get into shape and I’m hoping by doing it together we’ll actually follow through.

6 Culture myself

Hahaha. Well I really just want to go to more museums, look at more art, go to London (hopefully!!). Hmmm. Yeah, that’s about it, I just want to appreciate stuff more. I want to go to plays and learn about history and people.

7 Go on a road trip!

Summer road trip to Seattle is currently being planned!

8 Meal plan

I’m one person. I hate making food for myself. I know that I need to take better care of myself and eat better and it’s so difficult for me because of all the food issues I have. I want to start meal planning and using the groceries I buy and really experiencing and enjoying food.

9 Develop an evening routine

Most nights this past semester have involved me working on homework until around midnight and then falling into bed and looking at my phone for over an hour until I’m finally tired enough to fall asleep (this “routine” also usually involved me forgetting to brush my teeth or take my makeup off). I want to have a routine that will help me wind down and maybe help with my insomnia some.

10 Cook more

This goes along with the meal planning. I started off the school year cooking a lot and I really enjoyed it! But then I started a second job for about a month and began to live off of granola bars and microwaveable meals which spiraled into me redeveloping some poor food habits and ended with me kind of never eating or eating really poorly. So I would like to cook more meals, I have a Pinterest board of recipes collecting dust and I intend to change that this next semester.

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11 Wear more lipstick

I love lipstick, I think it looks great on me. It makes me feel super bad ass but I rarely wear it because of my stupid anxiety. I always feel like people are judging me when I wear it. So now that I’m trying to care less about what people think of me I want to wear as much lipstick as I possibly can!!!

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12 Do more artsy things

I just painted a few days ago for the first time in about a year and it made me realize just how much I missed doing artsy things. When I had really bad insomnia in high school and middle school I used to stay up until two or three in the morning and just paint or draw or color and I really really miss just being so uninhibited with my artwork. I want to do more collages and paintings and use the adult coloring books I have.

13 Be cleaner and more organized

I have lost my student ID more times than I can count just because I put it wherever I please instead of keeping it in one specific spot. I have also run out of mugs (which is a feat for me because I have about 10 at school) just because I haven’t done dishes for so many days. I want to live with less clutter. So along with this I want to try and minimize my belongings. I’ve already done so with my books which is a pretty big deal for me.

14 Go on adventures

I want to be spontaneous and go hiking and just have fun.

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15 Save money

Kind of self explanatory. I spend too much money, should save some more than I do. So I also need to learn how to budget.

16 Read more widely

I’ve really developed a wider reading range recently and I’d like to continue to read different genres and authors and learn things and be different from my younger only reads dystopian novels self.

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17 Treat others better

Tell people when I’m thinking of them. Bake cookies for my friends when they’re stressed out. Help people when they’re down on their luck.

I basically just want to be more consistent and have more fun this year. That’s basically it.

What do you all want to do this year?

College Doesn’t Feel Like Home

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I’ve been struggling a lot this semester with things. I’m not going to talk outright about what I’ve been struggling with but it’s been difficult and has caused me to really think about where I am as a person and if it’s the right place for me to be.

When I was a kid, I always dreamed of going to college. I got so caught up in the stereotypes that we see in television, books, movies, that I always imagined my life to follow these same patterns. Then as my friends who were older than me began to graduate and leave for school I got even more excited and nervous about the future that lie ahead of me. Finally, it was my turn to go off to college.

I’m not going to bore you with the details of my first year of college but I’ll say this: by the time I moved out I left my dorm room with no friends, roommates who couldn’t care less about me (they literally didn’t even think I was still going to continue school this year), and the sense that this school would never quite feel like home to me.

I feel kind of lost this year. Like I don’t quite belong here but also that I have nowhere else to go. I like my classes, for the most part, and I like my job, but other than that I feel like I have no purpose here. Sometimes I wonder why I’m even getting an education except I know that I really have no other choices.

I’m still caught up in the stereotypes. Where you meet your best friends at school, you have fun, you experience things you never have before, you finally live your own life independently. This isn’t my reality, in fact it’s very far from it and I’m having a hard time accepting it.

Lately I’ve gotten better at being able to say that I don’t really need to be the stereotypical college student. I can survive just fine on my own, I know for a fact that I can thrive in solitude. It’s just hard knowing that people look down upon you for that.

I figure I’ll learn to like where I’m at. At least tolerate it long enough to get my degree and then get out of here. I have nothing holding me here, which I enjoy.

I’ve been hesitant to share my experiences at school because I feel like they stray so far from the norm. However, I think it’s a good idea to share. Why? Because I want to help other people understand that there isn’t one way to experience something. I don’t want the stereotypes to win in the end and make everyone try to act the same.

I hope you all enjoy this post and if any of you have had similar experiences, or want to share I’d love to hear about them.

I hope you all enjoy your weekend. I’m going to try and make a post every day for the next week or so and then ease my way back into twice a week posts as the semester comes to an end.

A Perfectionist’s Worst Nightmare

Two words: group projects.

I have never liked group projects. When I was a kid, I used to just refuse to participate (and by refuse to participate I mean I just didn’t talk or contribute creative ideas, I still ended up doing most of the work).

I thought that once I hit college then maybe I wouldn’t have to deal with group projects as often… But boy was I wrong. Here at CSS I think I’ve done more group work and discussions than I ever did in high school and I still despise them so, so much.

When I do work, I want everything to turn out perfectly. I nitpick things until every detail is just so. I strive to do the best I can and then some. In other words, I want perfection. Group projects throw this off completely. And trust me, I’ve heard all the excuses people make: “it helps you learn how to collaborate”, “it gives you better communications skills and helps you learn how to work with others”, “you get to know more people”, etc, etc. Well, I think this is all a big old lie.

Group projects do nothing for me, in fact, they make me like people less! It drives me crazy that people can just let things go and sacrifice a grade just because they want to be lazy. I always want to take control of the project and just do everything myself because I want everything to turn out to my standards.

Recently, I had a member of a group project tell me: “Oh, if it was a higher stakes assignment I would’ve put more effort into it but since it wasn’t I kind of just let it go.” This really confused me. I can’t put myself into the head of someone who is willing to not put effort into a presentation just because it isn’t worth a lot of points. I mean at the end of a term those few points can really add up to a lot! It could make or break a grade in some cases, I’ve seen it happen.

I like independence. I like being able to do my own work and create things that reflect my effort and my vision. I don’t enjoy being reliant upon others to get to the level that I want my presentations to be at. I don’t like group projects.

Well, now that I’ve effectively brought some angst to your day, I hope you have a great one.

Why I Chose My Majors

So I haven’t quite had the time to sit down and really focus on writing a blog post and I didn’t have any scheduled to automatically post so I decided to let myself take a break from the blog and just start again this week!

So without further ado, I want to talk about why I chose my majors:

History:

First off, I want to share with you a wonderful video about why we should all study the humanities. I thought the information that the information Jean provided was spot on to a lot of my thoughts.

To me, history has always been something that interests me. My favorite books as a kid were Laura Ingalls Wilder’s books and Dear America books. I think I read every single Dear America or spin-off book that my library had growing up. I don’t think I ever really translated this interest into something tangible until I did begin college and had to start thinking about what I really wanted to study. I really found my love for history through my love for reading and I feel like the two can really go hand-in-hand.

I chose history because I believe that you have to learn history to make any progress. You have to learn about the mistakes and the triumphs from the past in order to make better decisions in the future. I can’t even begin to emphasize how important I think it is to learn about this world’s history. I constantly want to be able to learn more because I love learning and I really think that by majoring in history I will get to do that.

Now my second major is communications with a focus in media relations. This one would probably surprise a lot of people because I don’t seem like the type of person who would want to communicate with people for a living.

First semester freshman year I took a communications class, one that was required for all freshmen, and I ended up loving it! I find that when I can completely plan out what I’m going to say and give speeches I really enjoy it. I hate public speaking and yet I love it too.

So the degree in communications that I am shooting for is in I guess what I think of it as, a more advertising/graphic design/media path. It’s definitely my kind of communications path.

I chose this because I really enjoy graphic design and media really interests me. After taking that communications class I knew that this could actually be something that could work for me!

I think if it wasn’t obvious enough, I really just chose my majors because I liked what I would be studying. And that’s exactly why you should choose what you study.

Have a nice night everyone.

VOTE!!!!!!

HELLO EVERYONE!

I just want to take today’s post as an opportunity to urge anyone reading this who is a US citizen to get out there and vote today. Make your voice heard!

This is such an amazing right that we have and we should never throw that away.

I voted for those who can’t vote, and for those who never got the opportunity. For the women who fought for the vote that I would one day have. For the children who are going to grow up in this country. For every single person that was ever told that they couldn’t vote.

I vote for my future, for my siblings futures, for everyones future. And I urge you to do the same.

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If you’re not sure where to vote, Google provided this very helpful link:

https://g.co/kgs/mOeUmh

So get out there and make a difference.

Have a wonderful day everyone, and make history.

Pokemon and Mental Health

I’m pretty sure that if I sat down with my past self right now and told her that Pokemon would be a huge part in helping with our mental health, I’m pretty sure that I would have laughed in my own face. I was definitely that kid in elementary school that made fun of the “nerds” who played Pokemon. Which is pretty ironic considering I am and literally always have been a giant nerd.

Back in July, when Pokemon Go swept through the United States I decided to give it a shot. My boyfriend taught me how to play it and it took me less than half an hour to realize how much I loved this game. The more I played it, the more confident I felt in walking around by myself, and more often than not I actually looked forward to leaving the house. I started to feel more comfortable about leaving the house with no makeup on, or with a full face of makeup. Slowly but surely I began to care less and less what people around me thought about me because I am so excited to go out and try and catch new Pokemon.

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This is a screenshot from very soon after I began playing the game, I was very proud of my small collection of Pokemon.

So even though now that the game has slowed down I still play it. I feel as if it gives me a sense of purpose in some small way. It makes me feel like I have a reason to go outside and it gives me something to enjoy my time. It’s odd how much an app could change me, but it made me want to get outside and get walking. I love being outside but I would always feel self-conscious so this was a big change for me.

Coping with mental illness is difficult, and it can be incredibly time consuming to figure out something that even comes remotely close to working. People can suggest lists and lists of things and some things may work while other times nothing will work. Things can work for a short amount of time and things can work forever. I find that for me, things work for very short amounts of time, or I trick myself into thinking that they work and then they stop.

I just know that coping with mental illness feels almost impossible most of the time and sometimes it definitely feels better to just sleep all the time and not do anything, but it’s always great to have a brief reprise when you can actually find something that seems to help.

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 So my favorite Pokemon is by far Eevee. She’s absolutely adorable and if I could have one as a pet I would totally want one. I was so excited when I caught the first one, it made me so happy!

Do any of you out there still play Pokemon Go? What’s your favorite Pokemon?

I hope you all have an amazing night and remember that whatever you use to cope is good, don’t let anyone look down upon you for trying to make positive changes in your life.

Major Issues

Okay, I just had to make this the title of the post because I thought it was so punny!

So last year, I ended up changing my major… TWICE.

I know that so many people (or at least those at CSS) say that most students will change their majors at least once before deciding on the right path for them. Now I definitely started out my college career with a completely different mindset. I was completely set on my major, felt in my heart that I could never change my mind and yet, here I am, one year later, on a completely different academic track than I was on last September.

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At the end of last semester I started to really question my choice of major. I was enjoying my religion class, I found the work to be interesting but then I stopped and thought, do I really think I could handle working full time in a church? Can I handle the tough stuff? Am I going to be okay with all that I might encounter? When I really and truthfully thought it all through, the answer to these question was, no. I love my church, and I love the community that I have with my fellow Christians but in the process of learning more about what it would take for me to be in the role I wanted to be in I realized that with my personality it really wasn’t the greatest choice for me.

So I did something I never thought I’d do. I made an appointment with Career Services (at the suggestion of my counselor). Now, if you are questioning your major in any way I could not suggest meeting with a Career Services advisor more. It honestly changed my life. I thought about my interests, took a career profiling quiz and met with the advisor. Fun side note, she couldn’t believe how much the quiz showed me as not wanting to work with people, she said she’d never seen someone lean that far in the “working alone” direction. Hahaha, socially anxious introvert personality really shined through there.

Anyways, this appointment helped me to realize that I didn’t have to have a clear pathway right away, I didn’t have to have a super specific career or major in mind as a freshman. Over the summer I definitely developed my interests more and did a lot of research regarding various careers that I’m interested in. As of right now I am planning on double majoring in History and Communications and minoring in Deaf Language and Culture. I’m interested in being a librarian, a museum tech or curator, or possibly a graphic designer.

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All in all, what this experience taught me is that you don’t have to have your life figured at 18, or 19, or even at 20! However, don’t be afraid to dive into your interests and develop yourself as a person. If you realize that college isn’t right for you, that’s great. If you realize that you need to completely reevaluate your major, go for it. If you decide that you want to curl up in a ball and forget about all responsibilities, I support you (just don’t do it for too long, I promise things will look up eventually, it just takes time and a lot of trial and error). If people look at you funny for saying you have no idea what you want to do with your life, who cares! You’re working your way towards your goals, be they big or small, and to know that you are happy and excited about your future is what matters.

If you have any questions about this post, feel free to shoot me a comment or an email. I’d love to chat.

Have a lovely day everyone.