My Relationship With Social Media

Hello, hello everyone. I am back now after taking a littler over a week off of blogging. I was feeling uninspired (or more like overwhelmed because I wasn’t actually finishing any of the books or posts that I had started). I think I’m back now and I have a lot of ideas for new blog posts and I’m looking forward to getting back into the swing of things.

I decided though today to talk about my relationship with social media because it seems relevant as to why I took a break.

I don’t want to say that I’ve ever been addicted to social media. But I will say that I have always been highly influenced by social media. I constantly compared myself to other people and struggled to curate the perfect online presence. And I understand that other people also curate the perfect online presence but it still frustrated me that their “happy” and “good” moments seemed better than mine.

Things got really bad last year when I lost a job and was trying to use Instagram to advertise for my handmade products that I sell on Etsy. I followed hundreds of people and spent hours every single day scrolling through Instagram just looking at all of these people that were better than me. I’m not going to lie when I say it broke me a little bit. I felt so unsuccessful and so unloved and bad about who I was and what I was doing. That time period holds a lot of regrets for me and that’s why I tried to avoid social media as much as I could.

So in January I deleted Instagram. And in August I deleted Facebook. I have no IRL friends anymore so I didn’t really see the point in following the lives of people that I didn’t talk to and that didn’t talk to me. This blog was a way for me to be “social” and share things that I enjoyed without having to actually leave my house. It’s been a lovely reprieve from the stressors of my life and I was really sad when I realized that I was getting overwhelmed by it. Right now I’m also going to school full time (possibly looking into transferring again) and working full time as well. I’m just burning myself out at every end and it’s getting to me. So after dropping a class last weekend because I couldn’t handle it, I decided to take a break from the blog as well.

This break was really nice. I have a whole list of posts that I’m really looking forward to writing, I’m renewed and ready to start again AND it let me get creative in a whole different medium. Which I’ll talk about now:

So I got a Twitter for this blog and sort of just use it to shit post as well as share my blog posts. Plus I follow a lot of funny people that make my day with their tweets. And just recently I decided to make new Instagram accounts. I made a bookstagram (@amelia.and.her.books) and one that I’m sharing hiking/nature posts on (@amelia.rosin). Those Instagram accounts are the ones I want to talk about. I’ve decided to just share whatever I want to share and work on making creative posts and sharing the pictures that I love. I’ve been ignoring the numbers and just posting things that I like! I don’t even have notifications on and it’s the best decision I’ve made in a while. It’s been a lot of fun and it’s been so nice to get back into the swing of taking pictures. Photography has always been a favorite hobby of mine and when I’m stressed out and sad it’s the last thing that I want to do. But I know that when I can sit down and edit pictures it makes my day when the vision I had in my head shows up on my camera.

I’ve also been working on getting back into creative makeup. Doing my makeup has always been a huge form of self care. It makes me feel better because it’s so much fun and creating new looks is inspiring! I haven’t decided yet if I want to make a third Instagram account just for posting makeup or if I want to add a section to my Bookstagram that focuses on the makeup looks I create that are based off of book covers! Either way I think it will be fun 🙂

Now back to the blog. I am hoping to try and post every day again like I managed to do for the beginning of October but if I can’t I’ll be posting on Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, and Friday! I’m going to work on getting back to comments and whatnot today and tomorrow and yeah I’m happy to be back and done being as stressed out. I’ll be back tomorrow with a Top Ten Tuesday post 🙂

3 thoughts on “My Relationship With Social Media

  1. Emer @alittlehazebookblog November 4, 2019 / 5:24 pm

    I love this post!!! Your honesty is so refreshing. I too have a strange relationship with social media. I only have it for my book blogging and reviewing. I didn’t enjoy Facebook at all especially when I had a relapse of my illness, it only made me feel bad about myself, my career status, my social life etc. That’s why I so enjoy blogging and chatting about books. Because I don’t feel inadequate or have this need to be somebody else. I can just be honest about my bookish passions and opinions and can still protect the more private aspects of my life if you get me. Sending you all the hugs Amelia <3333

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