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How Art Classes Ruined My Creativity

For a really long time in high school I thought that someday  I might like to be a photographer or graphic designer or possibly both. I took hundreds of pictures to get the best shot of whatever I was photographing and on numerous occasions my digital art teacher had to make me turn in projects before I thought they were done because I couldn’t stop critiquing myself.

Photography meant the world to me and one of my high school art teachers pushed me and built me up and because of her I grew fond of the art that I could create, excited about the opportunities I had ahead of me because of my creativity. She helped me to hone my skills, step out of my comfort zone, let myself know when I needed to be done with a project, and was always cheering me on when I entered contests.

I’ll be honest, I never really thought of myself as creative and to this day I still don’t. People tell me all the time that I’m creative and I just nod along and pretend to agree, but I truly think that my artistic ability comes down to sheer dumb luck (catch that Harry Potter reference anyone?).

Then, my senior year, I decided to take AP Studio Art… I was absolutely insane my senior year and took five (5) AP classes (I was not one to participate in the good old “senior slide”). This art class was the downfall to my positivity about my art.

For an entire year I took hundreds of pictures, wrote out hundreds of critiques, created and recreated portfolio after portfolio until I cultivated something that I was so incredibly proud of. My breadth had a wide range of photos showing off some of my absolute best work and my concentration showcased people in various stages of being “masked”. The idea was to display portraits where the face, the normal focal point of a portrait, was not the focal point. And then came the time to turn it all in to be graded by the official examiners…

I remember sitting there and showing my teacher the portfolio that I was about to turn in. She shook her head as she scrolled through everything and sighed before turning to me and saying, “You’ll be lucky if you even get a 2 on this.” My heart just shattered. I had spent a whole year working on this portfolio, taking pictures every week, editing almost every single day. I was also furious because not once this entire year had my teacher had anything good to say about any work I’d done. No matter what, there was always something wrong. She couldn’t even be constructive with her criticism… I took it all to heart when I know I shouldn’t have and I’m still dealing with the consequences of that one art class.

Then in college I took a photography class, it was an easy course but in taking this I realized just how burnt out I was on trying to be “artistic”. Pictures no longer come easy to me, I haven’t even touched my camera in over a year. I rarely even take pictures with my phone anymore. I lost my edge. I hate almost every picture I take and I can’t imagine ever loving art as much as I once did.

The last time I loved a project I did was when I had this batshit idea to put paint all over my face and take pictures of it:

But the structure and rules that art classes laid out for me killed my creativity. The constant unconstructive criticism made me feel like nothing I created would ever be good enough for the world to see. I think that art classes can teach you so much but if you have the wrong teacher then these classes will fail you. And I think that’s what happened to me. Someday I’d like to relearn creativity, I’d like to be able to create without fear of criticism. I’d like to throw caution to the wind and paint my face and take creepy portraits. I like doing my own thing and being forced into boxes destroyed my creativity.

And if any of you reading this have ever been in a similar situation, or are in a similar situation now, I’d love to chat. Especially if you’re a high schooler or college student who’s in the midst of art classes now. Share your work with me! I’d love to see it.

Oh… And by the way, I got a 5 on my portfolio which is the highest score you can be given on an AP exam. So suck it high school AP art teacher.


5 replies on “How Art Classes Ruined My Creativity”

With havin so much content and articles do you
ever run into any issues of plagorism or copyright
infringement? My website has a lot of exclusive content I’ve either created
myself or outsourced but it looks like a lot of it is popping
it up all over the internet without my permission. Do you know
any ways to help stop content from being stolen? I’d genuinely appreciate it.


I’ve honestly never run into problems with this, or at least I’ve never found my content/images elsewhere. But I think the best advice I could give is to contact the people/websites that are reposting your stuff and ask them to take it down (or credit you for the content) or if possible report the posts (like if it’s on instagram or twitter I know you can do this). Sorry that’s happening to you!


Hello there, I am a highschool student in the midst of AP 2D design, and I have to say, I relate to this article quite a lot.

A few days I ago I shared with my teacher a personal portrait series that I’d done of my original characters. She took it apart, and I felt extremely ashamed. She wants to see me improve, or so it seems, but I can’t help but feel like the best pieces I’ve made in months are no greater than preschool sribbles. On account of it I am super lost, and tempted not to draw until the new year.

Even though her opinions and critique shouldn’t stop me, it’s really difficult to understand where I should go from here, especially since I tend to tailor my school art to whatever will get me a good grade. My teacher told me all this riff raff about “dont just draw portraits, do something with those characters” and “youve got such weird characters and stories in your head” and “a figure drawing class wouldn’t hurt.” I am not sure what to make of it, but I do know that my worst fear is that school art will ruin my desire for art as a whole. Especially since art is a way to cope with vulnerability, and has been since I was very little.

I’m really just saying this because I deeply relate to your experience and it’s a shame that art teachers are unaware of the magnitude of their words.


When your art is really personal it’s so hard not to let critiques get to you. I will say that sometimes stepping away from your work helps you come back to it with a fresh motivation so it might be worth it to set aside your stuff until the new year. Though you could also just create for fun instead of for class.

One thing that I do agree with on your teacher’s end is that if you are doing a series of portraits for your portfolio it is really important to not have “just portraits”. If you have original characters you could create something really expansive and tell a whole story with your pieces which could turn out really cool! The big thing with the AP graders is that they want to see something that is not only cohesive but also shows development and explains your portfolio statements without the words. My advice would be to take the pieces that you’ve really loved from these past months and expand on them. Have fun with your characters and don’t be afraid to pour your emotions into the pieces. Some of the best pieces I’ve seen from other AP art kids over the years have been the “weird” ones.

It’s taken me a long time to find a place in creating again and while I’ve still loved seeing art, I lost a lot of the spark I had for making it. But I urge you to keep some of your art just for yourself because that’s something I wish I would have done. I think that might help and remember that it’s just a class which is so much harder to accept than just saying it but it’s a class with a lot of work and it’s not worth burning yourself out for some college credit.

With all that being said, good luck with everything and keep your chin up, I believe in you 🙂


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